Post Election Apologies from the Media Junkie

It’s been about 12 hours since the US election results came in, and, like millions of people, I’m very nervous.  There are millions out there cheering, let’s not forget that, just not the ones I’m personally friendly with.  As we try to move on, I feel like I need to apologize for a bunch of things.

I’m sorry that I didn’t spend every waking moment thinking about how bad things in general.

I’m sorry that I want to go into an industry that wants numbers and eyes more than correct information; therefore, continuing the proliferation of lies on both sides.

I’m sorry I was not a Bernie Bro early on.

I’m sorry that I identify as female and have a vocal opinion.

I’m sorry that I am proud of being a woman, even when I’m taking my daily birth control pill.

I’m sorry that I look like I could care less, but when you’re dragged to the extremes of both sides between what your friends and family say, then you feel stuck in the middle.

I’m sorry that I tend to act like a leech, and believe whatever my peers say.  For a long time, I have believed that men are only after sex with women and nothing else.  That 2005 tape pretty much triggered those feelings again after doing an extensive amount of work to destroy that one-track minded idea.

I’m sorry that I wasn’t more vocal enough.

I’m sorry.  I feel like a horrible human being.

Look, no matter what happens in the next few months, both sides blamed each other for many things, and it feels more than ever that we are divided and peace will never be achieved with those who think and disagree with us.  I work on this every day with my father, a fiscally conservative man who works with the master mind behind Reagan’s economic policy.  It’s tough, but we need to push those aside to heal and figure out what’s next.  On my end, I did everything I could for a Clinton victory.  Voted.  Went to multiple phone banks.  Donated a dollar hear and there.  I don’t feel upset because of that.  I am upset because out of all we’ve seen played out, a man said very wrong and terrible blanket statements to everyone who was not cis, white, male, and Christian, and got away with it.

In two years, we get to vote in the midterm elections, meaning we have a say in whether we like this version of America or not.  Today, we can still carry the messages we want to say and fight for what we believe.  For what happened last night should not be the end all be all of democracy.  Unless America becomes Germany circa 1930s, then were all screwed on both ends of the political spectrum.  My call is not to persuade you to one side or another.  I am only asking for peace and unity.

Author: Samantha Felmus

Samantha Felmus is a writer with a cinematic vision. She holds a BA in Liberal Arts with concentrations in film from Sarah Lawrence College and a MFA in writing and producing for television from Long Island University - Brooklyn, specifically the TV Writer's Studio Program. In her downtime, she likes to cook and watch all the random things available on Netflix, Hulu, and YouTube. She currently resides in New York City.

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